Dear Mom,

I know I should wait for Mother's Day or Mom's Birthday for a post like this.... but why does a day have to tell me when I tell my Mom how much she means to me.  She will expect it then, right?  It's better when it is a surprise.  So it may get a little mushy, but I have been thinking about this the past few weeks, and I just have to write it down.  If you wanna pass up on the mushy things, at least listen to the video at the end of this post and listen to the words, again another Taylor Swift song.... she just says it so perfect!
It's hard being pregnant away from my Mom.  I want her to be with me during all these milestones, to watch my belly grow or to complain about heartburn, being tired or peeing a hundred times last night.  Since I just found out I am having a GIRL it really makes me think of my Mom.  I can't wait to have such a strong bond with my daughter.  That "girly" bond.  How I am going to give her as many memories that my Mom gave me.  Yes Mom, I have lots of memories.... I will name a few of my favorites:
* One of my earliest is laying on the floor in the kitchen while you made Nathan his PB crackers for school (Nate was so luck to get to carry a brown paper bag to school everyday, lol)
* Sitting down on the couch with you in 2nd grade to tell you that I didn't want to play basketball anymore.  I was crying because I didn't want to tell Dad because I thought he would get mad at me.
* Sitting on the toilet backwards every morning so you could do my hair... curling iron, bows and all.
* Making "mud pies" in the driveway and having to get "in the tub" downstairs to get cleaned off
* Coloring - I loved how you outlined everything in the darker color then lightly colored the inside - I couldn't wait till I knew how to do that (Now I do it with Carson)
* Waiting for you to finish my birthday cakes - sitting in the living room with the smell of cake rolling over top of the 2 swinging doors between the kitchen and me!
* You spilling paint on the kitchen floor and us shutting all the blinds fast, stripping down to our undies and cleaning it up before it stuck to the floor (don't be embarrassed... it happened and it was funny)
*The night I told you I was getting married.... were we more happy, sad, worried, or scared that night?
*The look in your eyes of how proud you were to hold Carson for the first time.... and balling our eyes out when you had to leave!
They say that with time you turn into your parents.  I am a spinning image of my Mother.  Almost everyday I find myself shaking my head and saying, "Oh my goodness"  knowing in my head that just a few years back I was either making fun of Mom for doing it or asking her Why she does it like that.  Most of the time I will text her and tell her what I just did. 
My Mom already knows this song and knows that I dedicate it to her.  But I recently got this CD out and have been listening to it on repeat (I bet Carson knows the words!!!)  Honestly, every time I listen to it, I get chills or teary eyed... it is just perfect for the way I feel about you Mom!  I love you and wish we lived closer together!!!!  Which is why every day that we do get to spend together now, is "The Best Day"